∞ Letting go of Gravity ∞

everything goes back to the ocean.
so whoever you are, and whatever your reason-
smile like you're teetering between two unlikely worlds
give the world a reason to label you insane.
you're safe.


What if I had been honest about how scared I was?

not that it makes any difference now but

I’m still terrified 


“It should be written on every schoolroom blackboard: life is a playground or nothing.”

—   Nemo Nobody (Mr. Nobody the movie)

(Source: prehistoric-fool)

I’m ready for an adventure~!


—   (Portuguese)The feeling of longing for someone that you love and is lost. Another linguist describes it as a “vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist.”

The Ordeal of Emotion


lately I’ve been using minor keys
I swear, on accident, like I awake
above page after page and it’s
upsetting to be doused in relinquish
for what I write

it’s a tragedy
to be writing
what ought to be happy
but is released in frustration
and it warps you and makes you
spurt a lie and you lie

it feels so confusing
to be confused of what you’re feeling

(via oh-neither-do-i)


Snowy Midway
It snowed today in Chicago! It was a beautiful sight.Photo courtesy of Maggie E.

Chicago is such a photogenic city, whether it be cityscape or nostalgic wintery shots.I think I’m in love :)


Snowy Midway

It snowed today in Chicago! It was a beautiful sight.

Photo courtesy of Maggie E.

Chicago is such a photogenic city, whether it be cityscape or nostalgic wintery shots.
I think I’m in love :)

If I could be anywhere at all in the world…

Just give me a clear night and a jacket (or two).
Once upon a time, not too long ago, I wanted to go star gazing. Today, I’m promising myself that wish will come true before I have to turn it into a New Year’s Resolution (because those are only ever made to be broken).


When you’re young, realizations often come too late. Then again, perhaps that has little to do with youth.

I’m finally being honest with myself, and there’s one thing that has finally become so clear I don’t know how I ever questioned it. 

It’s the ultimate anti-climatic, epiphanic "oh."
"oh" there are few things I know for certain, but of this I am sure.

No doubts, no second guesses, just a messy closet stuffed full of regrets and the strength, come whatever may, to keep moving.

first love - compilation/memoir assignment

“Hey. Do you love me?”

Why is it so silent? It’s a Sunday morning and my skin doesn’t fit right. Like clothes that dangle off at odd angles or sweaters with too many loose threads… the very subtlety of the defect was disquieting.

What was this feeling? It felt like a tentative dream, a promise, a dead end or a wish on a stray comet, with gas emission trails reminiscent of vagabonds looking for some cryptic virtue they’ve lost. Or perhaps they never had that virtue in the first place, but even so, the feeling of loss is real. A kaleidoscope view of discombobulating abstractions… what was it these things had in common?

It was the complete absence of sound, the uncertainty in never knowing what a dead end, or a dream, or a comet, or a promise should sound like.

No, it wasn’t the silence, really. Really it was the gap, the great chasm we find in the seemingly one-dimensional moment caught between two points in time, when silence takes on an almost tangible form. Silence seeps though all cracks, all loopholes, gets inside you like a cancer and never leaves. The cancer of silence spread, its individual spindles burgeoning, latching onto unsuspecting victims like an aerosol poison. It became a part of me, as real as the heart pumping so loudly in my chest I could imagine the organ contracting wildly. This isn’t tranquility, no, this clever fabrication of peace and quiet – this is suffocation.

I felt so excruciatingly aware - like a guilty suspect to an unspeakable crime. I was almost there. I often thought about what I would do in a situation like this, but honest to god all I was getting was the impulse to curl up and hide, caught like a nail between a hammer and the wood in the nanosecond before impact. It was an interesting sensation at best. Hah. Interesting is an understatement. I couldn’t move fast enough against the silence.

White houses, green shutters, shrinking potions, rabbits on the run, quantum jumping, praying underwater, salt meets skin, greets vulnerable tear ducts. Save words, save actions, save thoughts – thoughts that cascade down in shatterings and waves with off the scale measures on the Moment Magnitude Scale. Wait –

He smiled. Time slowed. I reached a precipice, that beautiful point of departure like a sudden intake of breath, a moment of expectation, a dramatic pause to signal a point of inflection in the plot. He smiled and in that moment, we came into the nucleus of the silence, the eye of the storm. Safe, I thought. I’m safe.

This wasn’t so bad.

It’s simple, really. Really that smile symbolizes something without us having to say anything. Something from nothing. Is it true? Together we understood something in the silence. Together was the string that pulled me through the keyhole so that I no longer needed to cup my ears against the cracks between the door and the wall, straining to hear anything in the silence. Beautiful isn’t it, the word.

In togetherness, silence mutates, becoming the poster-child of all things fragile, beautiful, and ephemeral. Within the silence, I had discovered the seventh noble gas, filling a specialty store heart-shaped balloon to uncomfortable pressures until­–


He said yes.

The silence dissolved.
Just. Like. That.
Simple, isn’t it?

 But, wait. Silence is a fickle creature – it never really goes away. Something fickle about it – something fickle about love, something fickle because this was never really about the silence. This was about hope, about uncertainty, about loss, about the perfection in ephemeral things – about him.

Two years later, sometimes I wonder if I could still hear him. I wonder if I could hear everyone’s heartbeats with a secret hearing aid imbedded in my tympanic membranes, would I recognize his?

I wait ­– wait for it, for the moment of expectation that, when fulfilled, makes all of this meaningful.

I wait, but I don’t hear him. The moment goes unfulfilled, and my hearing aids are still only imaginary.

I stop waiting.

Hey. It’s silent again.

Anonymous asked: Are you single

do fish defecate in the water?



Let’s go somewhere foggy! :D

Summer! :D

What’s a summer without a visit to the beach or kayaking or a quick trip to the dock? 

I can’t believe how quickly summer’s passing by– like the zohan on steroids! I almost feel like there’s more work to do in the summer than during the school year, but at least it’s work I WANT to do– and that makes all the difference ^_^


Someday, I WILL find myself on an exotic island, floating on transparent blue waters… hopefully I’ll come back without peeling sunburned skin(: (maybe i’ll look like eggs fried sunny side down)

Until then~